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good luck.

what if the feeling of lack is a gift, a first step towards what you desire? an unconscious, primal habit just waiting to be transformed into an active, expansive consciousness of discovery and deserving?

i am missing [this] which tells me that what i might want is [that] and i deserve to experience the personal (energetic) and external (practical) journey towards [having it]. we all know that we don’t always get what we want and we don’t always want what we get; we will receive something better or we will get what we need.

there’s nothing wrong with feeling or noticing a lack or absence. our first experience outside of the womb is a crying out for what we think we just lost (safety and connection) and for what we now urgently need (food, comfort). this tells us that we are, in fact, alive.

lack can guide us to what we desire, which can guide us into becoming the next versions of ourselves. and what happens when a desire is fulfilled? well, that comes with a goodbye; the self that has it buries the self that went out and got it. and then we begin again. a new sense of lack is born, and we get to move forward. or we can lament the illusion of, “i’m never happy! what if nothing will ever be enough?” the despair does not have to be true. it might not be terrible to be periodically visited by lack. maybe it just means you that get to want more and have more. that you get to desire differently and grow in new directions. in which case, lucky you.