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what you want, or better.

if life is a classroom and earth is the school, then what we care about are the exams. and what we want, what we are working towards, are the exam results.

all you can do is your best. all you can do is to give everything. all you can do is prepare and perform. and pray that your pencils don’t break, that your pens don’t run dry, and that your laptop works. what you must not do (what you cannot do) is make them grade the exams faster or make them change your grade. the results are the results and the results are final.

good thing the tests keep coming; this is what your soul signed up for. and after a while, you’ll understand the secret, which is that it’s pretty much the same test, over and over. different words, different exam lengths, and sometimes it’s multiple choice. these tests are asking you about you: who are you and what do you want?

many of the exams are group projects. and if you fail a group exam, you’ll keep getting assigned these same classmates to help you answer those same questions. you may not recognize them as the same, and this will drive your loved ones mad; they will wonder why you keep signing up for the same thing, with the same people, every time.

the assignments won’t change until you do. the results you want won’t come until you allow them through. don’t worry. you will receive the exact people and lessons you need. the results change when you change. you may be asked to wait; there may be delays in getting the results out. but eventually, you will get the results you want, or better.