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your story.

after a while, everything is just stories. it’s no longer your childhood, it’s just a story you grew up with; you are no longer playing out that narrative. the generational cycles you witnessed and carried with shame no longer have a hold on you; you release them and they release you.

the early promises that you’ll never do what they did, that you’ll accept only the opposite of what you had always known, reveals the lack and keeps you stuck. when the nouveau riche parade new wealth, it doesn’t feel like it’s theirs. doing and proving abundance is not how we release the fear of scarcity. you have to be the abundance, love, beauty, validation and safety you seek. the striving against only helps you partway; you have yet to fully arrive and receive what’s yours.

life is meant to take you from the illusion of, “i lack [the thing],” to “i can go out and get [the thing],” and failing that, to, “i am [the thing].” follow your heart and fight the limitations in your mind so that your soul can shine. integrate the versions of yourself that questioned whether you came all this way just to experience the persistent not-having of what you desire the most, together with the intermediate versions whose eyes started to open and question whether your blessings were somehow a mistake or just temporary. you will begin to understand the difference between what belongs to you and what does not.

your blessings are real, they are yours, and they will continue to flow into your life as you set aside the old stories and illusions of lack. you will have to keep going through whatever you’re growing through until you like your reality. until your story becomes your favorite story.